After one month of feeling like living in hell or at least like being imprisoned, I can say that I finally feel free, happy and like in heaven again.

When I arrived Germany, I had crazy feelings. For one month they went up and down like a rollercoaster would do. I went to the hospital and they diagnosed post travel depression and a counter culture shock (joke). I had to get used again to all the people I knew before, my friends, my family and above all, their mindset and the German mentality. I could not express my feelings like I did far away from home with complete strangers. Back in Germany I couldn’t even tell my best friends how I felt, because no one would understand. I was acting boring and depressed … but soon I realized that this is not going to help me for my future and enjoying my stay at home. So I changed my mindset, started to create a really active free time and went to work. Did it help? For fucking sure! I would have never thought that it would be this easy to adopt to the life here and create a lifestyle that would make me happy again!!!

The last month I started to see this part of my life as another chapter of my world trip. A phase, that is not going to last forever. I also started to appreciate all the things I was looking forward to, when I thought about going home:

1. MY PARENTS, which are the most supportive and understanding people on this world

2. My old friends and all the new contacts I made

3. My scooter: I fuckin’ love it. I can refill the tank for 6 bugs and I can drive 2 weeks with it

4. My PC: I have fast Wi-Fi at home and I can play games whenever I want lol

5. Free, unlimited and fast Wi-Fi at Daniel Karnatz‘s to do TV series marathon every now and then

6. On weekends I can “travel” to German cities to see my friends and get out of my tiny cow town

7. My alone time, that I never had while travelling (and that I missed so much)

8. My parent’s fridge, which is always full 

9. My grandpa’s garden fruits and veggies and my grannies “pocket money”

10. The fact that I have everything I need in the house I can always come back to

11. Last but not least: my new job(s)!

I can’t believe that I can fit into a life like this again. I sleep 6 hours, work 10 hours, go to training and afterwards I am so tired, that I go to bed and do the same shit again! The craziest thing about this is, that I fucking love to do this!!! How could I possibly change this quickly???

Somehow I realized how free I really am. I don’t feel like living in a prison anymore. I just work 3 days in a normal job and I can work 24/7 on my own business. I can go wherever I want (if I’ not broke lol) and I can be alone whenever I want (if my parents don’t piss me off, haha). I can finally say that I am happy again, because I can see my freedom again. I know how to accept my circumstances and laugh about things that made me feel sad a few weeks ago… which is also the number one thing I learned while travelling. YOU CAN GET USED TO EVERYTHING, IF YOU ACCEPT IT!

For everyone thinking “I’m not as free, as happy or whatever like you and I can’t see how I can do the same”, there is nothing forcing you to do, what you do at the moment. You are free and you don’t have to do anything. Everything you do is because you chose to do it. Most of the times, it is not what you really want in life. But you chose it, because someone expected you to do it. Someone told you, it could be helpful, nice or whatever. But how can someone else know what you really want?

The only one that really knows what you want is you. So why don’t you choose to be happy and free and do whatever you want? You don’t have to be nice and fulfill someone else’s expectations of you.

If I would have listened to my teachers in school, my friends or my family or some random guy telling me to get “serious” in life, I would have done SOMETHING with my life, but definitely not what I really want.
I do what I do, because I can feel it is right. My heart tells me to go for it, because it is my dream. I wanna live my dream and no one can convince me to do something I don’t really want (at least not for a long time).

Get serious? Why? To earn “good” money and support my future family? How old am I? What means “good” money? How can you know if I will earn “good” money, after I studied one single subject for 3 or more years? Should I prefer to do a job 5 times a week that “satisfies” my needs (money only) or should I do 24/7 what I want?

I just finished round #1 of my world tour. For now I will rest and save money, but soon there will be a round #2. I can’t wait. Btw, I even found magic back in Germany and I can finally say that I am going with the flow again.

Think about what you do! What is it for? Who do you do it for? Does it only satisfy you, does it really make you happy, or will it make you happy in the future if you continue like this? You should not settle for “ok” or “good”. You should choose “right” and “this is what I really want”!

I hope you will find your happiness and freedom!
Cheers everybody, your Flow